I haven't been updating because I've been far too busy riding on airplanes and going to a job interview and seeing my family. But now I'm back and completely unbusy, so here is a blog entry.
I love airports and airplanes. I find the whole experience quite nice. skymall is the greatest magazine ever created. There is no other publication with a better assortment of expensive things that you could possibly never need. I mean the editors clearly take the time to find the craziest things that are useless and over priced and then compile them into one issue. It is amazing. Thank you skymall.
The job interview went pretty well. The main guy I talked to is harder to read than a book about quantum physics. Holy cow. I don't think he liked me, but I honestly have no clue. I'm in the final 2 so that counts for something. too bad the finals isn't a cage match, I've heard the other applicant is a girl. I'm not saying I'm better than every girl, I saying that if it were a cage match my odds against a girl would be quite good. I mean honestly that would be quite the way to decide about a job. Do I really want this job though, that is the question I am asking myself right now. I was really excited at first, but when I start to think about the things I have to do to succeed in the job I'm not sure if it is the job for me. But if not this job, what job then?
I find life completely confusing. I have no idea what I want to do. Lots of other people I know seemed to know exactly what they wanted. They moved forward through college with grace and ease, and left college with great jobs. I on the other hand seem to be asking questions of my self and the world that no one else asks. At the end of the day I may have learned more about life, but I will still be flat broke. I guess I wonder if I am doing it all wrong. I don't think some of the people I went to college with enjoy their jobs, but they own houses, and some of them are married. I on the other hand don't really enjoy my job, and I'm broke, and I'm not seeing anyone (except Natalie Portman but by seeing I mean looking at a picture of her). My point is I am beginning to wonder if there are answers or I should just join the rat race simply because I'm tired of everyone else getting so far ahead. People say you should pick a career you enjoy, but I'm not sure I enjoy the things people pay you for. I enjoy hanging out with friends and traveling and writing on my blog. these aren't lucrative ventures.
Robert Frost once quote "2 roads diverged in the woods, and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference." A lot of people talk about this poem as having to do with nonconformity. But I think it is about life. I think he is talking about in life sometimes we have multiple paths we could follow, and we can only choose one. We must choose one. And it will make all the difference. The hard thing for me is that I feel I am at a cross roads and I don't know what road to take. I don't know that there is a way of knowing. I think you just have to take a leap of faith and pray to God that you can fly.
I don't like leaping, I struggle with having the faith...
1 comments:
First of all, sorry for clogging the old inbox w/ replies :-p I'm just now catching up on blogs.
I think I know, sorta, how you feel. Though I think finally finishing my degree would help my chances, I've been searching and applying for a job for almost a year and a half now, and have yet to be hired by any place I've applied to. It's frustrating, but I don't want to have to settle for something I wont love to do.
I think the lesser traveled path in Frost's poem is probably one that people looked at and thought it was too difficult. So, they choose the easy one, although I'm sure the more difficult one is also more adventurous and that makes it more enjoyable in my eyes. That one also takes more faith to get through. Though often we can't see what either path holds until we take it. One might start hard and end easy, and the other might start easy but end hard.
Okay, the path analogy is running away from me, haha, but I hope you got what I was trying to say.
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